No one

I still remember the requirement list that I set for friends (this is to avoid I mix with some bad company). But when time flies, I had amended much more the rules that I originally set and lots flexible rule are put in. However, I find out it's not worth of doing such changes as people will getting worse (they learn to be bad). I have thought of implement disqualification into the requirement list but I cann't decide it yet.

From the paragraph above, you may get what I implicit. And maybe, I'm too over-protected myself, or too 'idealist', or like to control people etc. Maybe I am, I do not say no, but the point is that I understand something which you might not see, eg: 'life vs live' concept. This doesn't mean is their fault (I never say so), no one is wrong maybe, or maybe is my fault: fault of over-demanding (therefore no one?).

Whilst, I had decided temporarily not to deal with all this (what I had done is done). I will concentrate on my studies as examination month is getting closer and closer. And tomorrow, I will have my mock exam for paper F6. Hopefully I can do it well.

Bye.

Cry

I don't know why I will cry. I was in the dream I think, but the feeling is really strong. I can feel it, the hand is holding my hand, saying ‘A-boy, charm lorh' which means miserable. I was scared awake. But the moment before I can truely awake, I really feel the gentle and soft hands of holding both of my hands. It heard like my mum's sound. I really don't know what happened at that point of time.

I woke, and I don't know why my heart was beating fast. And my mind starts to come with some negatives pictures. I was so scared. I walked around the living room and my room, I had the weird feeling with it. I backed to my room and try to cool down myself. But I get out of burst, my tears were dropping non stop (even now still). I scared what the pictures in my mind will happen. I really cannot control my tears. I feel the taste of tears, it's salty but not the taste of the feeling now.

This wasn't my first time of having such feeling in the middle of the night. I don't know why I will have such dream (may be not) and feeling. I cry for more than half an hour. The taste of tears for last time (long time ago) wasn't that weird. I really hope my family (included Vicky) will be alright. I rather be the one who suffer instead of them. I love you all. Although sometimes I doesn't act like that, but in the deepest of my heart, I know, I love you all. I love you papa, mama, Jie and Vicky.

Bike

Last Sunday, I went out with brothers to Malaysia Agriculture Park (MAP) which is located in Bukit Cahaya, Shah Alam. Great biking ever as I cycled for around 3 hours and luckily the next day my legs were not pain at all. X) It was a nice day with MCT, Ed, Took, MYY, Ee Yeng, Kristine and Xiao Ting. =) Paiseh to Edmund as I cycled too fast sometimes and almost fall down on the way back. =X

Hmm... Next is on last Friday, Ryan, Ken and I went to Sing-K. I have to say sorry as I felt not well that day (really don't know why ><). Then we went to Bukit Jalil parked and ride. We took LRT from Bukit Jalil station to the last station-Sri Petaling station-and then went to another end-Sentul Timur station-then only backed to PWTC station to meet Glady. It was like three idiots came to KL for the first time! - - But it is still a great experience in life. Haha

Others are things that I suffocate. So I not gonna talk about that. And there's a change in my principals of life and etc. I may update some of it at here. Bye =)

Start of term two

Term two for the third semester - ACCA I - is started this Saturday. The feeling of stress is getting stronger. I had never face this much lots of stress ever.

As what I planned, I should attend all the bridging classes but seriously, I can not take it. Sorry to my classmates too as I had absent for substantial bridging classes.

As what I have notice, I find out many people around me who are around the same ages failed to continue with their studies. I think these may due to pressure as well as the subjects' difficulty. This makes me realises that being a profession, with qualification(s), is not easy. I never think it's easy, but it's harder than what I expected. No matter how, I really hope my friends able to get throught with all these examinations and qualified to be a graduate.

Let's take the view back to myself. I think quite a big number of those who knowing me will have the thinking that I'm superior. Even I have few nicknames like 'Shen' and 'Bio-Shen' etc which stand a mean of 'God'. I'm human still. Okay? = = But every person will have their limits (or sometimes known as the top stage). Of course I have it too, merely because I'm human too. = =

Currently I taking four ACCA papers in the forthcoming examination sitting. Archievement in the last examination sitting allows me to become a ACCA-student. And at this stage now, it's equivalent to the first year of a business Degree. Whilst this sitting progression will be Diploma and the second year of business Degree or even more than that. I encounter troubles with the content of the syllabus of each papers as it's getting wider than before.

I also getting uneasy and worry about my friends progression. I start to find out the difficulties of the course, the slope of it is becoming more slant and more slant. I'm not to scare my friends here, but I just want to advise you guys have to continueing putting in effort to your studies. I wish have no one of you will stop study.

Getting elder, getting mature, getting vex.
Idealist, nonetheless, will never yield.

Progression

My last sitting examination results was out! I very surprise and happy with my results and I satisfied with it. =) And so, I'm now officially an ACCA student! xDD Hopefully I can get through all the examinations set by ACCA in the following sittings.

CAT RESULTS (2009/12-2010/6)

T1 - Exempted

T2 94   Dec 2009 exam sitting

T3 86   Dec 2009 exam sitting

T4 94   Dec 2009 exam sitting

T5 90   June 2010 exam sitting

T6 97   June 2010 exam sitting

T7 83   June 2010 exam sitting

T8 - Optional

T9 89   June 2010 exam sitting

T10 81   June 2010 exam sitting

Aggregate/average for June 2010: 440/500; 88%

Aggregate/average for Dec 2010: 274/300; 91.33%

Aggregate/average for CAT: 714/800; 89.25%

Honestly, I aim for world prizewinner last time. Although I had failed to do so (as the other candidates were too expert =X), I still satisfied with my result. ^^

That's all for this post. There are lots stories but I don't think to share it out here. Okay. Bye~ =)

6C's gathering party

Last Friday, I had the chance to meet with my primary school friends. I miss them so much. Some of them change a lot and were not see them for a long time. This makes me keep thinking about my primary school life. Nostalgia, though, sometime is great still. =)

At first, we gathered at BMC Look Out Point restaurant and then, we continued our chatting (since long time not meet each other, we sure had a lot to talk =X) at Wawasan restaurant which is just opposite the Look Out Point restaurant. Eleven of us, who are Chee Fong, Chin Pang, Amy, Wai Hing, Zen, Yong Xiang, Shi Yi, Vivian, Kyvonn, Joey and I were present on that day. We went back at around 1.30am and Wai Hing fetched me back. Thank you very much. =)

I really cann't believe that in the old days (standard six) my Chinese language was good. When Wai Hing said this I really got shocked. It's unbelievable. Unfortunately, now my Chinese language was not that good as the old days. And I found that I didn't really learned any new knowledge relates to Chinese language during my secondary school time. I feel frustrate sometimes just because of my ascendant Chinese language is gone just like that. No matter how, as what Chee Fong said, SMK is always like this, and this the only implication. However, I  really adore Yik Wah and Winnie as their Chinese language is superior still.

Another six years were past easily, just like a snap shot, and now I'm already eighteen. My childhood is filled with happiness and sadness as well, I really miss it badly. =(

To all members of SJK(C) Batu 11 Cheras, class 6C ('coklat' which means chocalate) year 2003. Sorry to all my ex-classmates if I did any wrong last time (my child temperament as well =X) and thank you to all of you who wish to be my good friends! ^^

I like you all. I missing you all so much. =(

Wish you all in great condition all the time! =)
And remember, keep in touch always. ^^

Friendship forever! ^^

Holidays

I had no publish any post for long time, and this seem I a bit (only) lazy. LOL =X

The examination is over, what's next? Of course my holidays! xD

Err... Nothing special during this holidays, I went out few times with friends and the remaining days of it: sleep and eat.

21st of June, year 2010

I went to college to register for the next semester, and met Chee Seng and Mr. Chua (who were not going to singing after this) and Chee Yeen, Salwa, Sze Yee, How Yee and Max then went to Sungei Wang via LRT to meet up Mei Yan and Chia Ee. We had our lunch (or breakfast) before we enter Greenbox. We had a nice singing party and it was great because this was our first time went to sing K. However, How Yee and Max did not really sing a song. I really hope they sing on that day. - -

And the final decision is made for next semester: F4, F5, F6 and F7.
F4 we only have Salwa, Chia Ee, Chee Yeen, Sze Yee, Chee Seng and I. And the rumor says that the existing lecturer has resign due to some reasons.

F7 we only have Chee Seng, Chee Yeen and I. Hopefully we can handle and finish it and pass the examination.

29th of June, year 2010

We had a emergency hiking plan at Broga Hill, and the participants who attend this event are Salwa, Bilal, Amaresh, Sze Yee, Chia Ee and Chee Yeen, Mei Yan and I. Unfortunately, we do not invite Mr. Alex who is our T5 lecturer to join us. After the hiking, we had our breakfast at Sungai Long Mamak restaurant then we dismissed.

4th of July, year 2010

This day was my eldest brother (dai-lou)'s birthday, and we (Sherine, Victor, Ken and I) had some surprising ceremony (although it does not seem surprising LOL) as for his celebration. We had our dinner at BMC Susan's restaurant, the meals were not that bad. Then we went to Station One pooling. It was my first time too to pool. We played five games and it was great! xD

The sad case is that we do not take much photos yesterday night. We have to take more photos next time. Haha...

*The sweet couple photo with cake is with Ken. =X

That's all the activities during my holidays. And the fourth semester is begin next Monday (F7 the first class). Hopefully this semester will be alright and my result for the last examination will be okay. =X

The existing study plan is expired, I have to work out another plan soon, and I wonder what new things will be added on to the new plan. Hehe...

And the last budget for first half year of 2010, I did a good job in budget control: sing K once a month and banned movie. For the absolute figure, it for sure will be over-budget. LOL! Haha...

So next half year I should have more budget control implementation especially funds for entertainment. =)

That's all for today, as I think it's more than enough. Hehe... Bye =)

End of May

I want to mention again, time flies with a lighting speed, as it pass extremely fast and I have did nothing during the period since last post.

One week has past easily, and my progression on revision does not seem efficient at all while examination is on in one week time. I had pressured recently but not now. And I get boredom twice in just one week time. It sounds serious for me as it's a conscious to me about the pressure level.

No matter how, I will try my best in my forthcoming examination, and wish here myself able to archive my targets. =)

Hmm... In fact, I have to say a few words to my fellow friends, as recently I had talks with them and I want to raise a comment to them:

To Kelly: Learn to let go, the only way to realize more to yourself, and wish you good luck on your next papers. =)

To Ee Aun: Now is the time for you to learn how to negotiate and associate with people, and show your interpersonal skills, although it seem to be extremely hard for you but I believe you can fight a win for it. =)

To Ying Ying: Wish you all the best to your study as well as your career (I count it as). Thanks for your advises and the same words to you too, I believe you will success in one day too. =)

To Chee Yeen: Firstly, I have to say sorry as you find me at wrong time and I cann't really chat with you. In the end, do your best in the coming examination, and fight it and get it done together! =)

At last, but not the least, I wish all my brother,sister and friends who are the candidates for the forthcoming ACCA CAT examination all the best!

Time flies

Time flies with an lighting speed whilst I am still a little boy who do the same thing still all the time.

My blog was being abandoned for months, as the feeling of unwilling to share is with me still. I hope to write something, at least one sentence. One sentence is enough to express the feeling sometimes.

I just looked back what I had written so much in this blog, and I found out sometime I'm superior in lying to myself, or in half-a-cup-full thinking: make myself feel better. Nevertheless, this always gives me the motivation to do the job and gains commitment in dealing any troubles and resistances.

That's all for today's post, I should have a nice sleep now and continue with my life full with colours.

Nothing much

Hmm...

While I hearing the song Wai Mian De Shi Jie by Aaron Mok, I get the feeling to write a post on my recent life.

Well, recently I utilize my time fully on study as this year March is the busiest month for me. I have class every weekdays (feel lucky that I changed my school to Orange Int. Coll., as if not I will have class everyday includes weekend) and the commute time of travelling really leads me to dying stage. And my heart sick (or healthy problem, not sure with it) is backed, which is the stomach feeling not well, seems like "got wind" (ada angin). This even brings me into deep trouble, makes me feel not willing to go school every morning. But at last, so far, I never absent for any class yet. Haha xD

There is one thing that I (myself) also unable to believe, which is I able to be a "true student". I go to school everyday and finish all homeworks as well as revision sometimes. I feel that's amazing, as I never do this in my secondary school studies. Haha =)

And the next thing is, I started to let my left hand to write. Basically it's just a practice for my right brain as to strike a better balance than before so that it ables to function well. For the starting age, of course, my left hand's writing is illegible still. =X

While the exam is getting nearer and nearer, I start to worry on my progress (as it is always slower than what it should be) especially on theory-based subjects. T5, which is the 100% theory paper,testing the industrious degree of the candidates, takes me into deep trouble (as my English is much poorer than others), and I hate to memories lots of facts (but I have no choice) especially the characters, i.e.: Henri Fayol, Peter Drucker, Henry Mintzberg, R. Meridith Belbin, Trompenaals, Neil Rackham and Terry Morgan, Harsey and Blanchard, Robert Blake and Jane Mouton, Rensis Likert, Charles Handy, Roger Harrison, Tuckman, Woodcock, Ashridge Mgmt. Coll. etc. However, the management study brings me a lot new style of thinkings in group and team and leadership as well as management. I quite like the knowledge of this paper but it's just a lot of works to do. ~.~

Other than study, I'm practicing "budget control" as what I have wrote in SRP post last time. That's why I do not go for any entertainment (which I have to pay lots) for the recent weeks. By the way, I'm planning to go Sing-K in this either coming weekends as a gift to myself for the exerted effort. Haha >.<

That's all for today's post, it seems very long and the timing now is already late (as tomorrow I having entire day classes) so it's better for me to go to bed now. Haha... Bye~

The best wishes to my friends who are going to camp tomorrow. ^^